My house had been packed with people since this Monday and there are more people coming today and the worst thing, my sis is REACHING here on Saturday. I don't understand why people can still coming over to enjoy their holidays here. Ok, they're my relatives, it's not that I'm not welcoming you here, it's just that why the hell are here during these times?! My sis is another thing, how many people told her not to come back. She is still coming back here. Reaching here on Saturday. She is actually sitting her paper here. Then the case is that WHY DID YOU EVEN WASTE THE $$$ TO GO THERE WHEN YOU'RE SITTING YOUR EXAM HERE?!!!? Basically I'm quite mad with her in a lot of things. She doesn't seem to think logically in some areas. Yet she can still scold the hell out of me. Giving her response or not ends up the same thing. She is always acting all mighty like 'i-know-everything-what-i-do/say-is-correct' kind of attitude makes me want to smack her even more. True, you're older, but that doesn't mean everything you do is correct isn't it?

To be frank, among us, she's the 1 used the most $$ for studies and it's still 'there' I haven't start my college life yet, but I am going to make sure that I'll be more useful than her. Done with her, about my family, I don't really blame anyone about the emotions and stuff. But hello? Do you mind that giving the same expression everyday doesn't change much. Why can't you just face it positively? It's quite annoying actually to me.(that's why I seems to be cold blooded to a lot of you guys out there) The thing is, you HAVE to accept the fact. It is not wrong to express your concern/love and stuff towards someone dear to you. But if I'm the 1 laying there, I am quite irritated to face all of you that cry every single time with me. Get my point?

Now, with more guest and MEN. The house had been getting messier and messier. I am very lazy myself. It's just I clean what I did. So why can't all of you guys just do the same than no one need to clean someone's rubbish/work. Everything happening around me is driving me nuts day by day. I am more to ANGRY than sad. I don't really get to sleep properly and I don't have a place to study properly. I don't like to go home at all now. It is stressful to me!! Give me a break already ="= To summarize everything, basically I hate everything now.

Labels: angry, man, sis

A lot of things had been happening for the past few days, and I mean ALOT! My mom had been admitted to the hospital since last Friday for some 'minor' things and it turned out to be a serious problem now. Originally, it is a small problem until Sunday. Everything happened so quick that I get scared sometimes. I'll just cut things short for now. She had a brain surgery on Sunday evening and in ICU since then. She is still in ICU now. The most worrisome thing is that, she is suppose to wake up on Monday but she did not. As for today, nothing basically changed. The neuro guy said he also don't know why she still haven't wake up and he can't do anything about it. All we can do now is just wait and see. It is scary to see things like that. I mean I was there when she had this thing called 'fit'. You don't want to be there when something like that happened. I think it'll be some image burned into my mind for the rest of my life x___X

Done with unhappy things now with better things. I had improved in bio!! I'm very happy with my results at the moment. Well, it haven't reach the passing mark yet, but it is closer now. Must work harder for the real thing waiting for me this coming May! The thing is that, all these are from reading a suuppperr long book! That book basically is killing me in some sense, but then again, as long as it give a negative feedback, I don't really care!(I think it is negative feedback.. right?) It's really 'no pain no gain' thing @@

My mom's condition is really crushing my dad. He is devastated. I can understand, but I cant let it pull me down. I still need to keep moving since I can't do anything. All I can do is just pray hard and do my own part better. I don't want to get sick and to be taken care of. Of course my studies, getting poor results is not an option. It's basically something I can't let it happen. Some people out there actually doesn't really know what is happening behind me because I don't look like someone which had something 'happened'. I don't want people to get worried with me. I actually don't quite like getting more attention then I should in some sense. Of course, I know it's because you care that you ask. Somehow, asking me is just making me remembering. I don't really want to remember something like that.

So, I don't really like returning home after schools now. I can't stand sad expressions and dialogs. Meaning, I can't really stand atmosphere like that. Which is why I'm usually bury myself under comedies and stuff I like to forget everything which is quite useful in some degree =\ Oh well, I hope mom gets better and wake up sooner!!

Labels: bio, mom, sad

I definitely need a break from everything. Everything as in EVERYTHING!! I feel like wanna hibernate to somewhere for a while. Schools, exams and humans are driving me to the edge sometimes and lately it's been pretty loaded by them. I haven't gotten any short period of 'rest' every since after Chinese New Year. I wanted to scream my lungs out at somewhere. School is typical with the stupid stress. The same goes with exams (who doesn't?) As for humans, I mean people from around me. I feel like wanna give them a piece of my mind. Stop asking me the same thing over 3 times in a row or I'll launch a scolding to you. You wont like it and so am I. It's very annoying especially don't bother me at this period of time. I'm not in a nice mood recently. I just wanted to smack a few people real hard.

Somehow I don't understand that why is that suddenly everybody is coming over during this time?! When I finally plan to settle down and study for my exams which is coming in 33 days from now? Whenever I have planned something ahead, it's always disrupted. If I don't change my timetable, I'm said as not flexible. When I changed it, I have problems myself. So what do you expect me to do then? *sigh*

Not feeling well for this few days, I think my lymph nodes are having infections again. Which is terrible. I can't really eat properly because of my gums are inflammed it hurts when I chew. Not to mention my throat. It's not the typical sore throat. I just don't know how to describe. Not having the appetite is another thing. I don't really feel like eating recently. It's more to eating for the sake of eating(I don't wanna get gastric) =\

Labels: annoyed, sis

Yesh, today is the 2nd last day for my blardy trials. It was statistics tho and I don't think I did any better than maths =3= I DID whatever I can so, well I won't blame anything since it IS my own fault for not learning the stupid hypothesis in the 1st place. Then again, even if I did I'd probably have forgotten it by the time my REAL exams arrive. It's frustrating =.= Anyhow, tomorrow will be my LAST paper!! And heck, it is Bio paper 5!! Again, just like Chemistry P5 where I don't know what to study. What's worst, the exercise/test we've done never returned to us!! How am I suppose to know where is my mistakes?!*sigh*

I changed my layout!(Thanks to CBY again)and yes, it is REITA!! I am so in luurvee with him. It's the 1st time that I'm so mad over someone who is 'alive' (not animated characters) His character is lovable, his voice is sexy (not as sexy as Tamaki Hiroshi, but STILL sexy), and he is proportional! I mean his height and so on <3<3 style="font-style: italic;">almost everything. ^^;;

I bought myself an electric guitar a few days ago. It is SOOOO handsome (ookaay.. i am NOT mad) Although it's not that branded but still, it's my FIRST electric guitar!! I've been longing to own 1. This motivates me to really learn how play or I'd really feel the 'pain' for the cost of the guitar!