A lot had been happening within these few days.(I just summarised everything) Let's start from :

14th June
1) Visited 1 Borneo showroom (IT'S FREAKING BEAUTIFUL!!) I wanna live in that!!
2) Went to Nexus Karambunai
3) Went to Rasa Ria Shangri'la
4) Visited Crocodile Farm,Tuaran (When it is closed and only US!) It's a bit scary you know, going to there in the evening and there's only YOU! Well, I actually went there with my sis's friends so, there are 6 of us including the owner.

15th June
1) Had Bio paper 1. Quite alot past year Q came out. But the thing is I don't have the confidence at all with it and it is the mark of my A-level exams ended.Hmm...
2) Flew back to Sandakan.(I'm in Sandakan now FYI)

Today
My mom left us on Monday and may her soul rest in peace. Today is her funeral. Quite a number of people turn up for the ceremony.A lot of her friends came and there are also alot of flowers. Thank you very much for attending the ceremony and sending the flowers and thanks to those who sent condolences sms to me altho you guys are not here! I mean all over M'sia. Due to this happened, I missed my Graduation Ceremony and I didn't get to take pictures with my fellow IS-mates. So, I think some of you might be wondering why I'm not there for the rehearsal on Friday and for today's ceremony, this is what happened. Anyway, for those who are graduated today, Congrats! Hope to see you guys tomorrow then! (I feel weird with my post today..it seems weird.. =\ )

Labels: exams, funeral, mom, Sandakan

Pirates of The Caribbean 3: At World's End tomorrow!! I sooooo wanna watch it! Johnny Depp is adorably cute <--? Watched some of the trailers and it made me want to watch it even more!! >.< Why must it show during the exam period? *waaaarrghhhh* Just had my 1st paper for A2 today. I did my best so I think I won't be complaining much. Filled in every single thing and almost every single line available. Which hopefully I can get some marks from it >.< Speaking of exam, it finally started! I've been waiting for it..kinda @@ Now I have... how many days to go again? I still haven't started my 'XX days to go' countdown yet. I'll starting counting 'soon' =p (I'm lazy..)

I am so freaking sleepy now that I could close my eyes while typing this. Or I should say I can sleep on the spot here Z__Z But I just feel like blogging anyway. I'm happy for Amber for her dad's recovery. Time flies doesn't it? My mom had been in the hospital for 33 days now. Still, like the same *sigh* I do hope she will recover soon! It's like I haven't been nagged for a long time @@ Anyhow, I mustn't let this stuff make my study mood gone!!

DS,DS,DS I wanted to own 1 so badly now. I wanted to play alot of games from there @@ Which is somehow it's a good thing that I doesn't own 1 now, since it's exam? (whatswrongwiththisfella)@@

Some treats :(I just feel like it =p)
Luna Sea- Aurora
Alex from Clazziquai- Nighttime
Rain/Bi- In My Bed

Labels: exams, mom, movie, mp3

Another day passed by and I am still somehow 'lost'. Exams are just 13 days away and as usual, I doesn't feel anything yet @@ I'm very lost when reading something. Then again, I'm not alone with this feeling =D School, I don't even know why am I still going there. It's like I'm going there to waste time and just to take exercise and answers for bio. As for chemistry class, I don't even know why I'm sitting there. As for maths and stats, almost everybody is doing other things, so am I =p Tomorrow is the last day for 'normal' lesson in IS which is going to be end by 3 hours of biology.what a day to remember.

Reading Amber's blog does make me sad. It reminds me a lot of things which I don't really want to remember actually but it is something that I have to face in the future after all. It's been the 20th day for my mom though, in the hospital. Now she's in Sandakan, and I'm not that sure what's the improvement. I do hope for improvement. As for my mom's case, I've read about it before , so when the doctor told my bro and dad about it I'm somehow calm. Since it's something will happen if things doesn't turn out right, but not this condition tho. Anything to do with the brain is never a good thing. I do wish when my time comes, I get to go on peacefully and comfortably =p (I'm not thinking anything stupid. Don't worry)

The weather is getting idiotic again lately. The sun is soooooo freaking evil to us. I've gotten darker than before too thanks to it. IS night is coming soon, real soon after the exams tho. I can't wait for it to pass because I'm itching to cut off my hair! I haven't been to the salon since Chinese New Year! I usually visit the salon once a month and try to imagine that I didn't for 3 months and I need to wait for another month more! And my hair is SOOO thick! There are a few styles that I wanted to try on,that's another factor that is making me sooo wanna chop it down QUICK!!.

Labels: exams, hairstyle, mom

Money somehow does makes the world go round (in some ways). Used a lot of $$ lately for almost everything. The most is my mom's hospital fee and stuff. Imagine staying in the hospital since 20th April till now. Plus, she had this brain surgery and was placed in ICU for around a week. Actually, as long as she gets well I don't think money is an issue (in some way it is...x__X I'm contradicting here) She is still..somehow in 'coma' but not completely in coma (I don't even know how to describe it) She went back to Sandakan today with my dad and sis and uncle by ambulance. Which means left me and my bro here. My bro is leaving KK soon and that means that I'll be leaving alone again until June when my sis is coming over for her exam. I wonder how am I going to survive? I mean, doing all the the work during exam period*sigh*

Living alone does have pros and cons. My time are super flexible and I get to do whatever I want in the house. The downside is that I need to keep the house clean!Eg. HOUSEWORK!! What's more I have pets. They are obedient which is..lucky @@ I found something interesting lately. Which is getting stuff from eBay!! Especially in UK with a PayPal account. M'sia doesn't really 'support' Paypal which ends up all the money in Paypal becomes virtual money. In some other countries the money in your Paypal account can be withdrawn. Stuff from eBay is really CHEAP!!! I seriously mean it. I bought a Kinky jacket and a Miss Selfridge tee there and now waiting to pay for my 'future' dress. I have some problems with the dress. I hope I can just make it in time!here, remember that the prices are in POUNDS!Remember to multiply by 7 X___X

I tried looking for Gazette's GazeRock is not dead t-shirt, but I found their Black Moral tee instead. It's sooo freaking expensive =3= I found some Reita goodies too but they're too expensive for me >.<

Labels: $$$, eBay, mom

A lot of things had been happening for the past few days, and I mean ALOT! My mom had been admitted to the hospital since last Friday for some 'minor' things and it turned out to be a serious problem now. Originally, it is a small problem until Sunday. Everything happened so quick that I get scared sometimes. I'll just cut things short for now. She had a brain surgery on Sunday evening and in ICU since then. She is still in ICU now. The most worrisome thing is that, she is suppose to wake up on Monday but she did not. As for today, nothing basically changed. The neuro guy said he also don't know why she still haven't wake up and he can't do anything about it. All we can do now is just wait and see. It is scary to see things like that. I mean I was there when she had this thing called 'fit'. You don't want to be there when something like that happened. I think it'll be some image burned into my mind for the rest of my life x___X

Done with unhappy things now with better things. I had improved in bio!! I'm very happy with my results at the moment. Well, it haven't reach the passing mark yet, but it is closer now. Must work harder for the real thing waiting for me this coming May! The thing is that, all these are from reading a suuppperr long book! That book basically is killing me in some sense, but then again, as long as it give a negative feedback, I don't really care!(I think it is negative feedback.. right?) It's really 'no pain no gain' thing @@

My mom's condition is really crushing my dad. He is devastated. I can understand, but I cant let it pull me down. I still need to keep moving since I can't do anything. All I can do is just pray hard and do my own part better. I don't want to get sick and to be taken care of. Of course my studies, getting poor results is not an option. It's basically something I can't let it happen. Some people out there actually doesn't really know what is happening behind me because I don't look like someone which had something 'happened'. I don't want people to get worried with me. I actually don't quite like getting more attention then I should in some sense. Of course, I know it's because you care that you ask. Somehow, asking me is just making me remembering. I don't really want to remember something like that.

So, I don't really like returning home after schools now. I can't stand sad expressions and dialogs. Meaning, I can't really stand atmosphere like that. Which is why I'm usually bury myself under comedies and stuff I like to forget everything which is quite useful in some degree =\ Oh well, I hope mom gets better and wake up sooner!!

Labels: bio, mom, sad