I'm so wanna scream and cry at the same time over things that struck me everytime. I need caffein infussion people. I'm so busy that I don't know where to start things because all of it stack like crazy. It's just a SHORT post neway to show that I'm still ALIVE... well.. somehow barely..

Labels: emo, mad, summary

Mid terms are coming up and I'm just... oh well, at least I finally start studying now. Although I'm saying that I'm studying, the problem is that my mind is telling me to study but I don't have the drive to make me study. There are so much to be covered and I don't think I can finish everything off for next week. It's crazy to be able to cover everything for next week. I can actually, but it would actually mean cutting my sleeping time from the usual 6 hours to 4.

I'm starting to get weird again, somehow. I start to hibernate in my room again, which I enjoy doing the most, especially with the connection I have now. Hibernating is one thing, I don't quite like to see humans now. Oh yea, I'm kinda ok with them now, if my cant-do-anything-altho-dem-mad friends don't do what I don't like the most, I'm kinda cool with them. However, I don't like hanging out much already. I kinda, had enough of them from early morning until the next morning plus all those... well, you get what I meant.

I seriously need to be more ignorant..at least, it'll make me get mad lesser <-- whatswrongwithher

Labels: emo

Yesterday's potato class is kinda the worst among all those days we got yelled at. Despite being yelled at so often yesterday, I don't quite 'feel' anything because I'm too tired to 'feel being yelled at'. Slept 30 minutes before the class and as you know kitchen practical class lasted for 5 hours and you don't get to sit at all. I didn't get much sleeps the days before and directly the day before the kitchen class, as I mentioned just slept for 30 minutes. It's kinda crazy for US to be like that. We hang out until 6am in the morning and everybody have 8am class. How smart of us.

Feeling kinda down recently and for some reason I'm starting to dislike some 'cute' stuff. I find it... so 'fake'. The 'stuff' I mean doesn't just mean objects, it too does include living object too. Other than being fake they are noisy. Lucky it's weekend and I get to steal the line otherwise I can't imagine what I'll be doing now. Then again, I DON'T know what to do now. If it's back home, I think I'll be baking...most likely.

Actually, I don't like sharing things. Sounds selfish? Yea, I don't like to share things in long terms. Especially I'm the 1 who need to depend on the someone for certain something. I don't like to be controlled much on schedule, so well.. you kinda get the drift.

I'm lucky to found something to live up my mood now. I'm watching Absolute Boyfriend now on crunchyroll. I didn't know they have a drama on it. Lucky me!! I luv the manga. Hopefully the drama is as good as it although it's changed alot. I think I might be getting the line for the sake of.. Night.. Crazy me =p

Labels: emo

Another kitchen class today. If you notice that I seems to update my this and my photoblog every Friday. It's because that I have kitchen class on friday and I need to remember what I've been doing for the whole day for my 'semester'-assignment. Why not just refer to what I've blog than trying to squeeze my brain juice to remember what I've done anyway?

I'm tired of squeezing my brain juice off while everybody seems to be feeding on it. It's not that I'm... being selfish it's just, can't you people use the head a lil' bit than waiting for other people? The most convenient phrase of all to get something from other people " I don't know". Asking is good, but at least give some effort on looking for the answer you want before asking. I do like to ask around too, but here, I can't get to ask anyone other than lectures. You get the point *sigh* Aside from "I don't know", I think the phrase that irritates me as much is " I'm lazy ... " and "I'm tired..." (even tho you did nothing) I myself too wish to slack around and laze around. Who the heck will be doing all the work if the whole group is slacking? People who doesn't even contribute bit of anything are complaining they're tired and all while those who are doing it don't even complain anything in front of them. It's not even the end of the semester and I already wanted to strangle people. How great is this...

Talk about class, restaurant class had been challenging my head of remembering things. I have problems remembering 'proper' things and now, I need to identify over 20 cutleries (I think..) in a week time. When I'm getting all stressed-up, as I review the photos that I've taken, it's kinda...easy. I just need the name when I'm 'memorizing' the pictures. Pictures in restaurant classes are taken with Toshi II while kitchen class is with Gray. You get to see the difference now? Taking pictures without auto focus can be quite challenging in someways. While I was snapping it with Toshi II, most of my course-mates are snapping easily with their SE phones. They have autofocus..that's why their pictures are clear. Toshi II do produce some clear photos if I get the correct 'point' that is.

Labels: class, emo

After a bad day regarding my teeth, I hereby wanted to announce that I've fallen in love with another bassist. Yep, Janne Da Arc's bassist, ka-yu!! I wuuuv his bass line. It's SOOO CLEAR. I always find myself 'looking' for his bass music in every song. He own his own brand,band and a bass tutorial DVD. Kinda successful no? He have his own solo work, and he used his real name Matsumoto Kazuyuki, this time.

Actually, I'm attracted to Zwei's Megu too,but too bad not much songs can be found. I mean, compare to Janne..they still lack in songs~ Anyway, Amelia recommended me a song, which certainly SUITED my mood now. Taylor Swift - Teardrops on my guitar. It hurts......lolz.

Labels: bass, emo, happy

Mood is seriously something like a roller coaster. All the while it's.. slowly going up to the peak and last night it fall down SOOOO FAST and I'm at the bottom. How I wish I never knew about it or at least I've know the answer to it. Then it would not be this torturing. Somehow I felt that this holiday is SOOOO long =3= This is life..full of ups and down I guess.

Originally I wanted to bake a cotton cheesecake but I can't seem to be able to find the flour and I end up looking for other CHEESECAKE recipes. The more I look at them, the more I don't feel like baking anymore. I didn't plan to bake today actually because I don't FEEL like it. If I bake today, it'll be a 'soul-less' cake or you can say as 'passion-less' cake. Then, my uncle suddenly ask me where's the cake that I'm supposed to bake for today...and so to please my family, I baked the mocha moist cake which they enjoy the most. However, it have a new name now. EMOcha cake =3= Yea..I'm kinda emo today.

Spent the whole day chatting away with people from Ireland and Aussie today. From morning till just now (M'sia time...convert to their time youself @@) It's kinda fun chatting with them. I think this thing should be done weekly? "Waste *** *****'s money is our job" AHAHA

Labels: baking, emo, pics, sad